Tuesday, January 31, 2006
whoever lied that legends of the fall would not make me cry is going to die

just finished watching legend of the falls. have wanted to watch it since sec2 when jean burnt a cd for me with its theme song in it. if i remember correctly, she told me then that it was a tragic love story. she should have said there were many tragic love stories, and even more violent deaths. the whole movie just makes me want to bang my head against a wall. i mean sure he's hot and has all that charisma, but he's mental!! and rather bestial. how can so many people love him so hard? poor alfred. he tried so hard, but he just wasn't loved as much. maybe he should have tried less, saved all that effort. the end result would still be the same, anyway. sometimes you just can't dictate love. you can't make your head tell your heart how to feel. but maybe feelings aren't everything. they come and go, then come back again, til all you're left with is confusion and uncertainty. moral of the story: be a rock, don't love. or find a rock to crawl under.

i get this nagging feeling my lit homework is due soon, and i haven't started on it. i don't really feel like writing. thinking is fine. having to express myself coherently is another matter altogether. then there's math, hmm. my math is so bad that i'm eligible for the school's math peer tutoring programme. why don't i remember being such a poor student in secondary school? this is very bad for my self-esteem. maybe i should try harder. then again who cares, my grades are between God and me. i don't think he minds that my sister got the clever, better genes.
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