Friday, March 10, 2006
sometimes the very thing you're looking for is the one thing you can't see

as teenage as this sounds, life's one big fat irony. seriously.

one day i'm going to look back at all of this and laugh my fat ass off. beaver keeps telling me how angsty i was in lower sec. it's kind of embarrassing to think about it. she still has the letters. ugh. i'm half-terrified she might blackmail me in future. and it's quite alarming to think that i haven't grown any more sensible. incidentally, i think the word 'alarming' is very funny. aLARming. the roll of the tongue, a slight cynical drawl (yeowch said i've got a cynical way of saying, 'hi, yeowch'. is it even possible to sound cynical in two words??), and the mental image of an alarmed (hahaha) ie wide-eyed, goldfish-mouthed kid gaping idiotically. okay so maybe i'm the only person who gets so amused by it. the word 'mongoose' amuses me too. i was reading the story about the mongoose who didn't want to kill cobras to my sister last night, and i kept laughing because the word is just so funny. mongoooooose. hahahhaha

why are we so afraid of being emo/ angsty? whose great idea was it to scorn people who aren't as laid back, who aren't as coolly nonchalent? it's worrying to think that you might never be an easy-going cotton-candy sort of person.

i loved the music at the restaurant we ate at tonight. i loved every single one of their songs! all out of love, spanish guitar, everything i do (i do it for you), hard to say i'm sorry.. =D brings to mind the twelveth question of the gp paper - 'everything that is too stupid to be said, is sung'. i was really tickled by that quote and wanted to do that question, but i realised i don't know anything about popular music. the one about instinct interested me too, but because i started thinking chronologically, i ended up doing the third question on prejudice and ignorance. basically, i wrote a lot of bovine scratology. i enlarged my handwriting by about 1.5x and was thus able to expound at length one point for four sides. i really don't have much of an argument; i'm convinced my gp teacher will be tearing her hair out when she reads it.

imagine if no one ever got mad. if no one ever hated or felt cheated or hurt. imagine if no one ever loved.
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