Friday, May 05, 2006
grown-up christmas list

today was relatively exciting, mainly because of my penchant for rooting for the underdogs.

classmate had squash finals; we were sent to support him. it was very noisy. realised that my cousin is, indeed, a very good player. so is the aforementioned classmate. and other random people. rj has really some really emo players. all the up-against-the-wall heavy breathing and when-will-this-end tortured looks, plus occasional racquet throwing.. well, everyone was rooting for the last player on our side. and only partially because he looked so very woebegone and little-boyish every time the other side scored a point. later we realised he's actually almost ridiculously tall, and hence disqualified from the title of 'little boy'. but anyway.

opposition rally. why did it feel so illegal going to it? as renhui said, it was like being communist or something. it isn't everyday that you get to hear people slamming the current government in public. the thing is, we've grown up in this environment. we've learnt the fine art of self-censorship. we all have lofty ideals about freedom of speech and equality etc etc, but how many of us actually believe they are achievable? i don't. i've never experienced it, so i can't imagine what it would be like not to live in fear of being sued, or actually being taken seriously. maybe i'm just cynical, i don't really think we can make a difference. the government, the country have become too synonymous with the ruling party. i think i should stop here. just in case. see, self-censorship. sigh.

am tired. shall sleep.
11:35 PM ; 3 comments