Monday, May 22, 2006
my pebbly thoughts

just got a call. gahhhh. am useless. am bloody, bloody useless. and all i can say is, 'i hope you're okay'. language is so pointless. particularly when it doesn't say anything at all. or maybe there just isn't anything to say. i'm such a pebble.

and the river's just passing, passing me by.

eh, damn, i think i'm going to go crazy when you leave. the depth of my affection and bond is directly related to how much i sigh and stare into space when you're gone. and if you both go at the same time.. it'll be a lot like looking up into fate's gleeful grin as it trips me. repeatedly.

am reading 'the go-between'. the prologue begins thus - 'the past is a foreign country; they do things differently there.' well the future is a foreign country too; they do things mysteriously there. and the future's a country i'm afraid to visit. i've always had this morbid albeit mild fear of crashing. not because i fear death, but because i fear fear, and i know everyone around me would be panicking and i tend to ride on other people's emotions and yeah.

today was the last day my sister went to school with me. and i had to come home first because i had piano, instead of waiting for her. now we'll never go home together after school again. school's going to be this much lonelier *waves arms wildly* now that i've actually had reasonable company for half a year. and i'll have to wait til we're both home before i can talk to her about the day. she hasn't even left the country yet and already i'm suffering from sibling-withdrawal symptoms. i think i'll go back to sleep. it's too hard trying to deal with my stupidity when i'm anything but slightly comatose.
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