Tuesday, May 02, 2006
until we die

just finished reading the transcript for 10 things i hate about you. it makes me wish i'd watched it. it is sweet, in a cliched sort of way. and eunice is absolutely correct; i love kat. but surprisingly i'm not so keen on patrick. i mean, he turns out to be nice.. but i don't think he's my sort. really prefer michael's sense of humour. just a bit less shakespeare - i'm not so keen on period pieces. shall find the dvd to watch sometime soon.

i guess siti's right in some ways. life isn't a poem you have to analyse for lit. but i don't analyse life the way i would a poem (i.e. badly). having found out that suicide doesn't automatically mean eternity in hell, since salvation is not based on deeds etc etc, i've begun to look at life a little differently. they say christians don't commit suicide because they (we) have hope in God, perseverance, purpose in life, etc.

i don't believe in hope (for me). because it only lets you down. same goes for expectations. expect nothing, hope for nothing, and you can never be disappointed. some people say it takes all the fun out of living. well, after more than a decade of chasing dreams and fall flat on my face, i think i know better now. nothing matters anymore; not grades, not money or how you look or what people think. it's what you really do with your life that makes a difference at the end of it.

you always have to melodramatize everything, don't you?
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