Tuesday, June 06, 2006
little girl hey, the door is that way

if i was madly in love with roger (based on the lyrics and the way he sang them alone) before watching rent, i am now desperately in love with him. and yepp i'm comparing love to a mental disorder. he looks the way i imagine he would, facial expressions and all. sensitive artist sort with a bit of a temper and slightly burnt from the past. add angst and i'm hopelessly snagged. fictional characters will be my downfall. oh well.

couple more hours and i'll be eighteen. going out with my sister tomorrow; she refuses to watch over the hedge, sigh. and she probably won't think it's a good idea to drink anything. i have no idea why i want to try some alcohol right now (the flush of being eighteen that doesn't actually mean anything?) but yeah i'll probably regret it since i get high on sugar alone. so. my eighteenth birthday will be spent watching a non-cartoon movie and daydreaming of roger. hooray.

i just know he'll be in all dreams tonight, now that he has a face as well as a voice. damn. and her face when he sang, 'little girl hey, the door is that way, take your powder, take your candle.. take your brown eyes, your pretty smile, your silhouette..' see, this is why you don't throw yourself at anyone, no matter how hot you are.. hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. damn, latent anger, how hot. oh, and angel's line from christmas bells is quite funny - 'kiss me, it's beginning to snow.' okay so maybe only i think it's funny.

gahhh cannot concentrate cannot concentrate

help, i'm still an incurable romantic after all. damn! so much for self-delusion. and if anyone remembers nightworld.. what's-his-name from huntress.. yeah i had the hots for him years ago, when i first read huntress. he's a bit like roger. hah. and then there's diego.. yep, a definite trend in some aspects. i realise chris will always be madly in love with red. and that if she finds such a person in real life, we'll all roll over and die of laughter.
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