Thursday, July 27, 2006
ran out of happy songs

watched the lake house with my sister last night. it was rather enjoyable despite the obvious lack of logic. then again, it was based on a korean movie, so that's unsurprising. but hey, sandra bullock and keanu reeves? they could do nothing except engage in witty banter and i'd cough up eight bucks. keanu is dead handsome, by the way. except he shouldn't attempt to talk about his feelings. his face doesn't go with it, somehow. makes him look awkward and stiff. he should just be sarcastic and funny and angsty. a bit like roger =D

sometimes i don't know why i try so hard - why i do my homework, why i struggle to pay attention in class - then i remember my sister's face when i told her about my marks, and i know that it's more to make her proud than any other reason i could possibly think of. most people expect that it's my mother who pressures me to do my work and avoid failing my exams, but it's really my intellectually snobbish sister (despite her denials on that subject) whom i don't want to disappoint.

i did have a slight disagreement with my mother on the way to school, though. i haven't been sleeping well lately (well, worse than usual) and i wanted to ask the doctor for sleeping pills. but she insisted that i try massages first (yeah and then i'll be sleeping the whole day. i want to be able to control my sleeping pattern) and went on about how i'm too intense. now it's one thing for friends to tell me that i'm too intense. for my mother to say that.. well i should really stop wearing my heart on my sleeve. not that tired today. i guess i'm finally adjusting to the medicine. i lost a bit of weight, losing my appetite because of the new medicine. the person who eats ben and jerry's by the pint didn't eat much except bread and cereal for a week. unfortunately, i lost it all at the wrong places, and i'm now whining to everyone that i've become flatter. i swear i have. i didn't realise it til i went swimming the other day and my bikini top was too loose. at first i thought my maid had stretched it, until i got home and realised everything else was too loose too. am annoyed. all this despite my drinking milk all day! hmph. shall start eating solid food again.

and mel, i'm so sorry i only got your message a day later. =( i really feel awful about it, i wish i could have helped you.. especially when you said you thought of me first. =( i should really switch back to my old number permanently. ugh.

might as well start preparing for sunday's lesson tonight. i foresee a busy weekend.
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