Friday, July 14, 2006
you wouldn't know the difference, would you?

discovered that actually quite a lot of people want to be teachers. it ought to be a comforting thought (and it is, in a way, since my classmates who want to be teachers are relatively normal and nice), but it makes me wonder if it'll just be another thing i'll try and end up failing at. i was never a smart kid, except in my compositions. everything else was pretty much crap. particularly chinese. i remember teachers who were shocked to hear i was a teacher's daughter, that my sister was a gepper, that she was actually smart. also partly because i had a huge attitude problem. but now that i think about it, it probably stemmed from the fact that i didn't like not being smart and wanted to prove that i was my own person. i still detest the chinese teacher back in p3 who pulled me by the ear across the classroom and threw books at my face. who called me dumb. just because i didn't speak chinese and didn't look chinese. i was dark. that prejudiced, racist bigot. she's probably dead by now. and i'm older and it's all just a memory. it's tough being a kid. it's tougher being a dumbass kid who looks adults straight in the eye unflinchingly. never let your children do that. it gets them into a lot of trouble in school.

i could be a caped crusader, a space invader, and you wouldn't know the difference, would you?

my hair doesn't seem to be growing. the novelty of short hair has since worn off and now i just want it off my neck. al keeps pestering me to cut it again, but i've decided to grow it back. my friends are divided between those who prefer my short hair (namely those who like short hair or are particularly spunky themselves) and those who mourn the loss of my tresses (namely those who rather idealistically view me as someone who should wear jewels in her hair and a rose between her teeth). frankly i don't think i'm spunky.
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