Sunday, September 17, 2006


watched a very long engagement. couldn't stop crying. and it wasn't just because both mathilde and manech were very pretty. war disgusts me, by the way. the time i had to watch the ns propaganda clip five times over while working at the discovery centre was torture. i keep imagining myself being blown up and lying there on the field bleeding to death while around me comrades fall like flies. which really doesn't make sense since i'll never be sent out to the battlefield (thank goodness, i think impersonal violence is the worst and least forgivable kind of violence) and since i can't be a nurse i won't be around when they bomb the red cross tents and violate about a thirty different human rights regulations. wow. i just realised i'd be really uselesss during a war. maybe i'd fall in love with the enemy sent to plunder my village, and in some desperate attempt to salvage my own self-esteem, i'd kill him, thereby winning the gratitude and admiration of my entire village. okay who am i kidding, i don't even belong to a village. my life is very sad.

okay back to a very long engagement. i thought it was really sweet the way they became friends when they were kids; what with him badgering her and obviously being wildly in love with her despite being shorter than her. i love all these french childhood-romances (think jeux d'enfants). and the way when she's finally tracked him down, the movie closes with the words (if the translation is correct) 'she looked at him... she looked at him... she looked at him...' and all i could think was omg what a perfect way to end. she doesn't fly to him all kissykissy because he would be scared witless (amnesia).. all she does is look at him (admittedly he is a very fine specimen) bent over whatever he's making, re-learning his features, her black eyes shining with tears. it's especially accentuated by the polite distance her chair is kept from his. a little dignity is always appreciated. i think the french put the romance in love. the score's pretty good too. i like the music that plays while they cross the fields that have grown over the trenches. funny, but while i was watching the film, my mind was screaming arghhh love is bloody painful, must never fall in love!! but after that while i was thinking it over, (it started getting so convoluted that i fell asleep for hours), the romance got to me and i thought, ah maybe it's worth dying a little death for. after the nap though, i changed my mind again. heh.

crap i just realised i'm very good at wasting my time. i haven't started studying for lit, which means i've effectively wasted three days. there goeth my last hope =( oh well, not that i ever had any. can't find the madagascar ost anywhere, i'll probably end up ordering it online. the da vinci code has a pretty good scores too (hans zimmer). of course i didn't watch it - i listened to clips online. i would get that too, except how would i face God in heaven? (piracy can't be a sin in this case, can it? haha) am getting a sorethroat. unsurprising. i'm only surprised i didn't get it earlier.
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