Saturday, November 18, 2006


as a prelude to the incoherence that will probably begin forthwith, i should explain that i fell asleep after reading my gothic notes, had awful, awful and vivid dreams pertaining to gothic themes and conventions (i could go into that but my mother told me not to be so macabre and ghastly and so effectively downplayed the importance of my dreams =( people should be allowed to discuss their dreams, instead of having them surpressed!), then woke up with an awful headache (it felt like what people who get hung-over tell me hang-overs feel like, but i swear i haven't had any alcohol in months) and then realised that i'm having a crisis because i don't know if souls are gender specific.

as in, would we still be the same people with the same souls, if we were guys? i'm trying to imagine and it's giving me a huge headache, not to mention a crisis of self. why do we talk about characters as if they do not belong to bodies (minus fictional characters who are inextricably connected to their bodies for the sheer reason of creation)? if it is the character alone that we are concerned with, why is the gender important? or the physical body. except in literature, because of the writer's impression, creation, the need for the physical to mirror the abstract, etc etc. but in real life. does it matter? would it matter? as a christian of course i believe that our souls belong to our specific body since it's all be pre-destined (God tells jeremiah the prophet that he knew him even in his mother's womb etc etc and we always assume that applies to us. i think it does. i shall check. but later.) but theorectically speaking, does the chosen gender have any impact on whom we eventually become?

(and i just watched anna and the king - louis becomes draco malfoy in later years! well, the actor grows up and plays him anyway. it's so adorable, you can just see draco's smirk waiting in his chubby face)
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